A little over 2 years ago I was diagnosed with high blood pressure. I got very sick and ended up in the hospital for about a week. It has been a daily battle for me since then. With the help of some great medicine and a wonderful husband, I have been able to maintain a normal level up until about a month ago.Let me back up and tell you a little about me. I'm the kind of person that does not like to be bored, loves to help others when I can, and has a hard time saying no. I'm a stay at home mom, and am guilty of spreading myself to thin. Does that sound familiar to anyone else? Why do we do this to ourselves? I don't have an answer for this, but I get mad at myself a lot for it.
About a 2 months ago my Doctor's office ran out of samples on one of the very expensive medicines that I was taking, and gave me a prescription for a generic that you use a little differently. In the back of my head, I knew it was not going to work, but I had no other choice. Did I also mention that I'm really good at ignoring things, when it comes to me? Not when it comes to my kids, husband, or any other responsibilities......just me. I know what you are thinking WHATS UP WITH THAT? I know I'm not the only one. Its hard to admit, but its me.
So needless to say, I have been feeling lousy for about a month, and ignoring all the signs, and WHAM.....Monday afternoon it hit me. My blood pressure was all outta whack! I filled my husband in and the Doctor put me back on the old meds (the ones that worked) yesterday. They say it will take about 72 hours to notice a change. I'm on strict "rest time". In the mean time, I'm a wreck! There I said it...
Kiley looked it all up on the Internet and after I'm off "rest time", I need to focus more on me. His suggestions are, yoga, meditation, exercise, and weight loss. Do I need all these things? Hell Yes! Is it all so hard to manage and figure out? Hell Yes!! Losing weight has been a losing battle for me my entire life! I can find so many better things to do than exercise. I'm just being honest.
Any suggestions, ideas, or friendly advice is welcome. I'm open to anything at this point.
Any suggestions, ideas, or friendly advice is welcome. I'm open to anything at this point.All of the pictures used in this blog were taken by my husband Kiley.
oh kash there is so much i want to say!!! i know im just going to blab on and on.
ReplyDeletefirst, please know that you have a kindred spirit when it comes to mom taking care of everyone but not herself. i do the same thing. if something is wrong with jay or the kids, im there! but when it's me, im last on the list. a few years ago i was suffering from some horrible neck pain that i just tried to ignore. eventually it got to the point where i was in tears so jay dragged me to the dr. the dr prescribed a bunch of meds that, even with my prescription plan, were very expensive. i got a small prescription and hoped for the best. fortunately it worked, but if it hadnt i probably would still be in pain---i doubt id go back to the doctor. there are too many other things i need to do/spend money on.
also, i need glasses for reading..i went 10 years without getting new glasses!! 10 years!!!! i finally got new glasses last year and its so nice to be able to see again...so yeah, i know exactly what you talk about. its sort of a joke around here that i only go to the dr when im pregnant. i only have two kids so that gives you an idea of how often i go.
and i agree with your family..you need to take better care of yourself!!! if you cant take care of yourself, you're not going to be able to take care of the family and all the ones you love. exercise sucks. i hate it too. jay and i try to go for evening walks together. we leave the kids with my mom (or by themselves--we dont go far) for 30 minutes and just walk. we walk fast enough to work up a sweat but we also talk and connect too. i really look forward to that time.
i also love my yoga ball. i got mine at target relatively cheaply and i think it came with a dvd. sometimes i'll do my exercises while watching tv with the kids. you just need to find some exercise you like and will do.
so yes, take care of yourself and get better. i'd miss you if you weren't here. :( i love you kash!
this got way too long. (sorry) i really should have just sent an email.
(Oh, and all the pictures in the post are beautiful.)
pretty pictures!! You will get better soon and exercising is hard to do! I need to do the samething! hang in there sister :)
ReplyDeleteGood luck with this. (boy that sounds like I will be taking off after I write this but that is not the case!) I have a GREAT dvd that I LOVE to do.
ReplyDeletehttp://www.amazon.com/Pick-Your-Level-Weight-Pilates/dp/B000GEIRBO/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=dvd&qid=1240541254&sr=8-1
Let me know if that does not work. It is called pick your level pilates and it is the BEST dvd I have ever done in terms of having different levels. I love it and find that it is easy to do, but changes my body wonderfully... if I do it that is:) Also it is only 8.99 so that is a wonderful thing as well:)
I hope this is a little help. I know you can do it.
Thanks for sharing Kash! It is soooo hard to get into caring for oneself. I fight with it all the time but when I actually have bouts of success - I'm amazed at how good I feel. I hope you find your groove and feel better soon!
ReplyDeleteawwww, take care of yourself, mama! i think we are guilty of spreading our selves too thin... it seems to come right along with the job of mothering. it sounds like you have a wonderful, supportive family who will help you get through this :)
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xo,
erika
take the time you need, take care of yourself and lean on your bloggy buddies here for support. my only advice is to remember to think positively. tell yourself that you CAN and WILL do all those hard things, and that you're worth it.
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